You need to love yourself first. Why cut? You’re just going to make your life miserable as well as everybody else you love. If you love your mum, you should stop. Believe me, you need to stay strong. I know how it feels to be in a hard family situation, but trust me, hurting yourself isn’t going to make things better. You will overcome the bad days - you just need to stand up for yourself and MAKE things better. Don’t just sit around & feel yourself. There’s millions of people out there who are in your situation, you’re not the only one. But that doesn’t mean you should follow along & go the wrong path. Get your life better. Stop cutting. Stop damaging your life. If you want your mum to stay strong, you need to be strong yourself. I pray that your mum gets better. All my blessings for you. As for you - you need to have a reality check that in order for you to get back on track in life & be happy, you need to get up & think positive.