LOL omg, I’m in the exact situation as you. You’re trying to convince yourself that you like him, but for some heck of reason, he never seems to get off your mind, right? All I know is that continuing to lie about your own feelings to yourself is not going to affect how you truly whatsoever. So simply ask yourself honestly - does he give you butterflies whenever he speaks to you? Does he make you smile so much even if there’s nothing really to smile about? Do you feel like you want to talk to him all day & everyday? Can you imagine yourself being with him?
Ask yourself that. Answer it honestly. & there’s your answer.